Currently Listening Begin to Hope By Regina Spektor see related

happy birthday sara flower

"..movies &plays &books affect people but with music there is something about it they take really directly, you know? maybe it's because it's a voice singing in your ear, but people really connect the things that are said with the person who says 'em." - regina spektor

Currently Listening Parachutes By Coldplay yellow see related

lost thoughts

you should read kite runner. it's one of my top favorite books. i have a million favorites, but this one is one of my favorite favorites. no kidding.

i was going to leave my entry at that but obviously i haven't. what i really want to say is sometimes i choose to love others more than myself &sometimes i choose to love God more than things..but i often tend to love myself more than those that mean most to me &He who provides for me. like amir. sometimes i feel like i throw pomegranates at people like hassan begging them, needing them to throw them back at me when all they do is pick one up &throw it in their own face &walk away. or how amir asks if hassan would really eat dirt if he asked him to. &how hassan responds yes. but also says he wonders if amir would ask him to.  

still Your Mercy remains

this is probably my second favorite song. first being how great.

i'm not the same happy silly person i was. i'm sad a lot now. i don't know. i can't have fun anymore. i feel like my surrounding is a funneral &i'm mourning. i can't let go or something, i don't know. it's been 1/2 a year. but everyone around me isn't mourning with me. they've moved forward? i don't really have a connection with people anymore. i miss my bipin. i miss my dad &my mom &my brothers &sister &emily &becky &tonia &gia &melissa &brandon &jeremy &just everyone. me. God. ah. even if i just saw most of these people or will even today later. but even more, He's here. He's Everlassssssting. 

the ART of losing myself.

this has been such an exhausting life so far. my Hope is in Him. my Hope is Him. i hope. Yout Light will shine when all else fades. 

love, rosa.

in my heart &my soul
Lord i GIVE You control
CONSUUUUUUUUUUUME me from the inside out, Lord

let justice &PRAISE
become my embrace
to LOVE You from the inside out

everlasting
Your light WILL shine when all else fades
never ending
Your GLORY goes beyond all fame
&the CRY of my heart
is to bring You PRAISE..

new just in:

rosa has a facebook.

also i'm done with finals except for the preschool one i have to take tomorrow - w00t!

i was thinking i might want to switch my name from "rosa" to "rose". i don't know though. it probably would take a long time for people to adjust, you know? i don't know. maybe i'll be rose when i'm a senior. who knows? but right now it's summertime! &i am so thrilled! aren't you? i'm going to read a lot. &write &pray &do art &take pictures &listen a lot this summer. it's crazy that this is my pre-senior summer! i think i'm starting to embrace this growing up thing for the first time of my life. well not including those years when i longed to hold up all five fingers &pronounce my age to the world around me. 

i think i feel older knowing that this is reuben's pre-freshman summer. we haven't been at the same school together since india! i don't know if i'm ready for reuben to go to high school yet. not that he isn't mature enough. it's just weird. like my little brother is going to be in high school? none of my younger sibilings have reached this stage - obviously, but still. he's ready though.

how about you tell me a really good book you like. a fiction piece - a novel or something in that shape. i really want to read a lot.

in other news i don't think there is any other news.

goodnight, moon.

love, rose [it's a possibility]

Currently Listening Hide Nothing By Further Seems Forever hide nothing see related

meet US

&check out all of this happppppppppppppppppppppppppppp:ppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppy! [from the trip]

^my dearest mother (the happppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppy "driver")

^my self (the happpppppppppppppppy "navigator")

 my dearest sister (the happppppppppppy "passenger")

a list containing simple things to remember the true deepness of each one i've thought &or learned these past days &things i'm thinking now compiled together

by: rosa.

one) traveling never gets old

two) to remember that pride is damaging humility is restoring &beautifull

three) being in the middle of nowhere isn't close to being half bad when i'm with my mom, sister &a nice tree to climb

four) being outside alone is energizing &very soft &calming all together for me

five) i should note to remember this list

six) it's nice to getaway from stress &responsibility sometimes

seven) i don't take enough pictures

eight) i've been so worried lately &have been moving so fast in life that i've forgotten to be still &just know that He is God

nine) i need to confront myself more

ten)  when i'm sad i can be glad that God is near to the brokenhearted

eleven) it's fun to clean sometimes

twelve) &then mess it up again without even trying

thirteen) i have been holding a few mugs hostage in my room for quite awhile

fourteen) i want to spend a lot of my summertime on the swing in my backyard &on my roof even though i'm not supposed to go on my roof (shhhh)

fifteen) i have a new email address, &if you're lucky you may have it if you ask

sixteen) i like to be inspired

seventeen) especially by things people wouldn't normally think are inspiring. like today i saw a red balloon in the sky on my walk to school

eighteen) i want to write more

nineteen) i should stop, look &listen at/with people

ah well, goodnight. know that you are consistently loved unconditionally by your Creator as am i. even though we are usually more consistent to loving only conditionally. hm. want to try loving unconditionally with me?

rositsa